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A prayer and a lament

I sit with the ancestorsSipping from a gorgeous cup that sends me deep into my bodySipping golden rod tea, mild, sweetA good Sunday morning teaI light the wormwoodHear my prayersOh whomever might be listeningI know not to whom I pray anymoreTeach me to prayI’ve lost the prayers of my mystic selfLeft alone with empty senselessContinue reading “A prayer and a lament”

nature vs my house

I walked into the woodshed the other day and saw something scurry up into the rafters out of the corner of my eye. I didn’t think it was Kat and spirits have been on my mind lately, so perhaps it was a spirit. Probably not, because I rarely hear the spirit world, but you neverContinue reading “nature vs my house”

I need…

On my moon time Feeling all the feelings Trapped by life Trapped in my body I hate my house My home to be Hate is so strong Toxic I want it out. Overwhelmed Too much to do in a place I don’t want to be. Grieving what is MourningContinue reading “I need…”

being buried and meeting my husband

I did another “practice” journey to the HMM-Thelma. This past fall my Dad bought a property with a tear down house on it with the intention of me moving in to it. We started renovating it and was almost done when the building inspector came to us with a major list of things we neededContinue reading “being buried and meeting my husband”

my first shamanic journey

February 4, 2020 Shamanism. I am deeply drawn to shamanism. I love the earthiness of it. I love that there is no talking needed. I love the spirit guides and spirit animals. I love that it integrates whole body healing. It seems to be the latest thing in spiritualism. Particularly ayahasca and other hallucinagenic plantContinue reading “my first shamanic journey”

anger and chainsaws

February 16, 20203:28pm cabin Struggling. Raw. Thoughts of suicide waft through my mind like a thin wisp of smoke, leaving me wonder, “did I actually just think that?” Have I sunk so far down that I’m thinking of death again? When, how did that happen? Why? Perhaps, I just should. Indulge once. Forever be doneContinue reading “anger and chainsaws”

the boys!

The past year has been heartbreaking for me in terms of relationships. I’ve never been good at them, and when I moved to Thelma in late 2018, I opened up my heart and actively pursued friendships. I found that many people were not able to reciprocate. People were happy to get together with me, talkContinue reading “the boys!”

I am Goddess Nayelli and my realm is the forest.

I have fallen so deeply in love with nature. I have spent hours and hours roaming around in the bush over Christmas and during the new years. Searching for healing. Searching for solace. Deeping deep into my seeping wounds. Facing the darkness head on. Asking for healing. I took whatever was freely given. I soakedContinue reading “I am Goddess Nayelli and my realm is the forest.”

Enjoy a song!

It’s me playing a hymn I particularly like called Blessed Assurance. Enjoy!

piano moving and grey hairs

I found out this fall how attached I am to my piano. I had to wait for my Mom to die before it was gifted to me. It was the piano that kept me alive during high school. I practiced hours a day. Over the summer it was stored in a highway trailer while IContinue reading “piano moving and grey hairs”