Exploring the two sides of me.
In the bush I am:
kind, stable, strong, assured, at peace, gentle, caring, loving, a healer, all knowing, a goddess
Out in society I am:
fearful, anxious, untidy, unmotivated, overwhelmed, over-stimulated, not understood, very sensitive, not supported, alone, CUT OFF FROM HER TRUE ESSENCE, to many responsibilities to manage, constantly at battle with herself, angry, a mundane shluff
The forest is my realm
The kingdom that I have been entrusted with
to keep
to love
to wander in
to give and receive healing
When I am kept away, I lose myself
Getting lost in the concrete prison
Dying more at each stop sign and corner turned
I obsess with being in nature
Supported by her love
I wear myself down with longing
The intensity difficult
Never letting up
What am I to do?
Have I glorified what I can’t have?
Have I created a false truth?
I second guess myself.
My heart hurts
My soul aches
Unable to sustain life away from my kingdom
Dying, dying, dying……
Wanting to hasten the process if I must remain in the cookie cutter concrete prison
My soul longs to soar with the birds
To take root like the trees
To flow with the streams
Burbling, life-giving streams
It wants to nestle into the moss and wintergreen
It wants life
My soul wants the life it came here for!
truth and love and the darkness inbetween 